We Are There

 

I really want to say that I don't know how long it's been since I published a blog post. However. I do. I could spend a few paragraphs apologizing. But. It's easier to just start writing and publishing again. We writers go through hiatuses. Life happens. 

With that being said, I will start with this. I posted this photo on my personal Facebook page on June 8th. That date was rather symbolic because it was the halfway point between celebrating my last 40-something birthday and turning the big 50. 

Yeah. 

I am going to be celebrating my 50th birthday this year. I don't want to admit that it's a hard pill to swallow.

But. 

It. 

Is. 

I have this internal sense of wanting to finish things. Start things. Continue things. My brain is like a browser with a bazillion tabs opened. 

And, at times. It freezes up. Because there are so many thoughts and plans and goals and directions. It's to the point where I get pissed off because, at some point, I need sleep. At this point, I view sleep as a waste of time. But. It's not. 

At times, I find myself pacing and verbally speaking what I should be writing whether it's for a published blog post or my book. 

Yes, I am working on a book. 

I sometimes wonder if I should be vlogging instead of blogging. However, with vlogging, I realize I would have to be presentable with no noise in the background and that's almost impossible for me as a freelance writer and Work at Home Dog Mom.

I also realize that my personal Facebook page is out of date. I have Facebook pages that I need to bid farewell to. I have new Facebook pages I need to pay attention to. I have this blog that I seriously need to update and revise. 

I have a little over 4 months to get this shit done. 

It is going to happen. Because. I, and we, are going to slam it. All the way around. The past few years have been a whirlwind of changes and happenings. But. More so. Awareness. Perspective. Peace. Ease. Healing. 

The list goes on. 

We are there.