Friday, August 26, 2016

My Peace, Balance, And Solid Ground Is Right Here...

Earlier this week, I had to put my foot down with a local business I was helping out. And, with that, I distanced myself. I also corresponded with a family member who, for the most part, we have nothing to do with. Overall, it's been a challenging week. I let too much get to me. It teetered on the line of getting the best of me. That doesn't happen often, but when it does, I'm thrown off balance. I get quiet. I do too much thinking on the overnight and that carries into the morning hours when I try to sleep.

I've gotten very little sleep this week.

I went to bed at my usual 5 a.m. this morning. I used Lisa's tablet and played a couple of games. I dozed off.

Lobo woke me up about an hour later. He was whining and it was apparent he didn't want to sleep in the doggy bed in the bedroom.

I lifted him onto the bed. A few minutes later, I fell asleep.

I had vivid dreams of storms.

Not just a dream. Dreams. More than one. Or two. I lost count.

I was standing on a high elevation and could see the most spectacular storm cell.

I saw a funnel cloud that formed into a rather large tornado.

In several dreams of being in the immediate area of a tornado and had to take cover.

One dream after the other of storms. Tornadoes. Funnel clouds.

I wasn't afraid.

I woke up around 9:30.

I was laying on my left side.

Coco was curled up against my chest.

Lobo was curled up against my boobs and using Coco's bum as a pillow.

Sophie was curled up against my tummy and was using Lobo's bum as a pillow.

They were all sound asleep.

I didn't move for the longest time.

I just laid there admiring our kids. Asleep. Together.

I thought about the dreams I had of turbulent storms.

And waking up to the kids sleeping soundly. Together. Snuggled up against each other and me.

I know this is all a bit Hallmark-y.

However, that moment was symbolic for so many reasons.

And, I took it all in.

The dreams represented my week.

Waking up to what I was witnessing represented my home life.

The message was clear.

No matter how hectic or busy or stressful or challenging my week is, my peace, balance, and solid ground is right here.

At home. With Lisa. With our kids.

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